Lengthy post seems to have got much more lengthy than intended. TLDR. Feel free to ignore it and just drop a cry gif after this post.
This wet/sap/cry thing has got daft to be honest
I know one of the reasons i've got this label over time is for caring about peoples feelings and sticking my neck on the line to point out when someone's being a cunt to some other poster, so i don't give a fuck, but i do understand it. However i'm not going to start being a cunt so a select few windups stop calling me a fucking drip. That would be some pro damp moves.
Also i never wanted anyone to know i was a mod and no one knew for a long time, but when unfortunately it came out i started getting double the grief. Its almost embarrassing the amount of grief some mods get. People seem to think its some authority that needs rebelling against which is a fucking odd way for a bunch 30 somethings to go on if you think about it. I do nothing but delete spam and my own tune threads after getting feedback so i can get them finished (much to Stamina's annoyance
) and help people if they PM me to delete something damaging. That's it. Fuck all else.
The only reason i became a mod was so i could help spent hours deleting all the spam so the forum was usable again. I got nothing for it, just grief.
Then Autograff started his relentless little ikos is a soft wetty campaign dating back to a badly worded post by me in a thread about graff, in which i eventually admitted i was wrong and apologised. He's gunned for me ever since. Him calling me a wetty at every opportunity went on for weeks, and as we know, if you dash enough H20 eventually someones getting soaked. An here we are.
Don't get me wrong im not blaming Autograff solely, I know i've not helped myself at times. It just seems that feeling no way about discussing emotions and showing that you care about things gets mistaken for weakness and i forget this at times.
Reality is if a thread is going to have a real destructive affect on someones real life i'll delete it. Our brand of fucked up humor shouldn't spill over to the real world into none members lives, and if my belief in that makes me a sap in some peoples eyes, so be it. Its annoying at times but its D&BA, i wouldn't expect any less.
You'd be surprised at who's deleted certain things but i've bit my lip and took the blame for it. Its not how you think it is trust me. Each mod does what they see fit, but at the moment its always me that gets the vex.
At least im not some no mark who doesn't have the conviction to speak up for and act on what they believe is right. Them chiefs are the saps, that's the fucking definition of a sap.
Those who've met me IRL off the forum know im not this flouncy mug the few of you try to make me out to be and the people on here who i really respect and like know me as i really am, so its no sweat. I'm not thick, i know its just light trolling, although at times its pretty gutting when someone i've always got on with and have a lot of respect for joins in with digs. Would just be nice to post without catching wreck for no reason.
Anyway, i've bit my lip for long enough an took it on the chin so this seemed as good a place as any to say my piece. No doubt this post will just add water to the puddle so to relax before the next round im off for a little cry in a lovely scented bubble bath with candles with a bit of Netsky on the ipod.
Lots of love,